I had an absentee father and it resulted to growing up with 2 mothers and a father I never had but aways will be. To my Nanay, Mama Pacita and Papa Vi you were the parents I grew up with and I will love you until the last breath of my being.
When I stated before that I am a difficult person I was not exaggerating. But before I became a difficult person, I was a difficult child.
My mother had a great deal of trouble with me, but I think she enjoyed it.
~Mark Twain
As stated before, I did things during my haywire days that I may not be proud of but I most certainly have no regrets because I am who and what I am now because of who and what I was before. Had I changed something the result would have been different.
The greatest Mothers in the world:
1.) Is the mother who is not your biological mother but loved you just as much.
2.) Is the man who is of no relation but loved, protected, guided and treated you like you are his own.
3.) Is the mother who also stood as a father.
Happy Mothers Day!
Monday, May 9, 2011
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
The Relentless BUM
"I am here for a purpose and that purpose is to grow into a mountain, not to shrink to a grain of sand. Henceforth will I apply ALL my efforts to become the highest mountain of all and I will strain my potential until it cries for mercy."
Og Mandino
I have been bumming around for a period of time. I sort of get depressed not doing anything. So I try to divert this depression into something useful. As always.
I do scrap booking. And I am through with the Photo Album I gave to Beamer in Dubai, a gift I vowed to finish once I'm here with him. And so I did. And now I'm halfway through with his old photos. I saw his ex-girlfriend and I am pleased. She is pretty. My husband has good taste in women. Hahaha! And I am almost finished with our wedding album.
I do crafts. And I recently made this postcards showcase hanging in our living room. I will be using it on our Farm wedding as well. That's why I am prodding my friends to send me a postcard as an RSVP because it will be decorated on the wedding day itself.
I am on the process of packing the winter clothes since its spring. I'm a little bit dazed of a four season fashion. I am from Philippines and we only have dry or wet season, either way its hot or humid. Then I stayed in Dubai for 4 years which is basically just like Philippines and I also have no problem with that. But here, its too much of a difference that I still need to learn the difference of the winter jacket and a spring jacket (because I never wear one too often) and I no longer need to wear one of my boots because apparently its a winter boots. Damn!
I have to set up the other room because we have to move on that side now that winter is over. I have to buy end tables and stuff to make it feel like a room. More of like the room that we have. That's my pet project.
Our office room which has a single bed is a bit tupsy turvy because of I am using it as my office. I am designing my gown and making some decorations for the forthcoming Farm Wedding.
I have to remodel the gown I wore during the City Hall wedding into something else.
I have to make sure the gown I inherited from Ms. Sandy will fit me. I have to buy silk ribbon as a belt accent for that dress.
I keep 3 Blogs. This BLOG (married in Superbia) and a secret blog for the Farm wedding and I still have to finish the other blog (shoe-paholic getting married) before I get married again.
I am a wife, which means I have a job to take care of my hubster and make his lunch bag. I still have to learn how to make breakfast though but he is always on the go! I make sure his work clothes are prepared too. I love the part where his colleagues complimented him. He is still the same person I married 5 months ago but now he has a better wardrobe.
Did I mention that since I shop a lot, I sort of needed to iron a lot of clothes and its all piled up but I have to be vigilant about it now. Hahahaha! That, or I should stop shopping! So, I guess I need to be ironing those clothes.
I started a business and it is still in the works but I am working so hard for it. Visit House of Sun and contact me if you are in the Philippines (specifically Bicol) and if you are interested to be a part of House of Sun Vintage Co.
I am mostly busy planning for the Farm wedding program and my wedding in the Philippines which is gonna be huge not because there's a lot of money involved but because all my friends are gonna be there.
Did I mention I am contemplating to get driving lessons while waiting for my work permit from the immigration?
I think I haven't strained my fullest potential. There's more. There's more.
Og Mandino
I have been bumming around for a period of time. I sort of get depressed not doing anything. So I try to divert this depression into something useful. As always.
I do scrap booking. And I am through with the Photo Album I gave to Beamer in Dubai, a gift I vowed to finish once I'm here with him. And so I did. And now I'm halfway through with his old photos. I saw his ex-girlfriend and I am pleased. She is pretty. My husband has good taste in women. Hahaha! And I am almost finished with our wedding album.
I do crafts. And I recently made this postcards showcase hanging in our living room. I will be using it on our Farm wedding as well. That's why I am prodding my friends to send me a postcard as an RSVP because it will be decorated on the wedding day itself.
I am on the process of packing the winter clothes since its spring. I'm a little bit dazed of a four season fashion. I am from Philippines and we only have dry or wet season, either way its hot or humid. Then I stayed in Dubai for 4 years which is basically just like Philippines and I also have no problem with that. But here, its too much of a difference that I still need to learn the difference of the winter jacket and a spring jacket (because I never wear one too often) and I no longer need to wear one of my boots because apparently its a winter boots. Damn!
I have to set up the other room because we have to move on that side now that winter is over. I have to buy end tables and stuff to make it feel like a room. More of like the room that we have. That's my pet project.
Our office room which has a single bed is a bit tupsy turvy because of I am using it as my office. I am designing my gown and making some decorations for the forthcoming Farm Wedding.
I have to remodel the gown I wore during the City Hall wedding into something else.
I have to make sure the gown I inherited from Ms. Sandy will fit me. I have to buy silk ribbon as a belt accent for that dress.
I keep 3 Blogs. This BLOG (married in Superbia) and a secret blog for the Farm wedding and I still have to finish the other blog (shoe-paholic getting married) before I get married again.
I am a wife, which means I have a job to take care of my hubster and make his lunch bag. I still have to learn how to make breakfast though but he is always on the go! I make sure his work clothes are prepared too. I love the part where his colleagues complimented him. He is still the same person I married 5 months ago but now he has a better wardrobe.
Did I mention that since I shop a lot, I sort of needed to iron a lot of clothes and its all piled up but I have to be vigilant about it now. Hahahaha! That, or I should stop shopping! So, I guess I need to be ironing those clothes.
I started a business and it is still in the works but I am working so hard for it. Visit House of Sun and contact me if you are in the Philippines (specifically Bicol) and if you are interested to be a part of House of Sun Vintage Co.
I am mostly busy planning for the Farm wedding program and my wedding in the Philippines which is gonna be huge not because there's a lot of money involved but because all my friends are gonna be there.
Did I mention I am contemplating to get driving lessons while waiting for my work permit from the immigration?
I think I haven't strained my fullest potential. There's more. There's more.
Monday, May 2, 2011
A Bottomless Crevasse of A Dream
"Our greatest glory is not in never failing, but in rising up every time we fail."
~ Ralph Waldo Emerson-
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People sometimes intrigue me. After inculcating some sense in their rather miserable minds I thought you got me and the point I have been reiterating for the past few years.
I've been rattling my brains why I love Sue Sylvester and then an amazing lightbulb sparked in my brain: Because she tells the truth however harsh it can be.
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-"Not everyone could be champions. Not everyone SHOULD be champions. We need fry cooks, bus drivers." Sue Sylvester
Im just so tired telling people the truth, so I guess I have to start bullshitting them for once. Maybe they will believe me if I tell them that they are really pretty and they do not have those yellow teeth (as mine or worse!) and they have lustrous hair (not me, I have dandruff!) and they really look good if they color their hair blonde and they are really sexy (pass me the barf bag!) and they have a six pack (again, not me! I have a belt bag!) and they have a posture of a beauty queen that would put Naomi Campbell to shame!
Really! Give it up! Think of something more productive rather than weaving castles in the sky! Its just such a pain to see you waste your time and effort when you could have been something else..maybe something better. Far better than what you are dreaming of.
Let me tell you a story. I dream too. When I was a kid I dreamt of becoming a singer. But do I have the vocals to back me up? HELL NO!!! Im like a howling coyote in the middle of the night. Should I keep on dreaming? That is pathetic! Think If you are equipped! If you are not, think if you can possess it through practice and modern technology. Like if you have crooked teeth, get a friggin' brace. If the problem is not fixable for some reasons, then.....My GOD! Please give it up!
I will not advice that you kept on pursuing a bottomless crevasse of a dream. I have said this time and time again, not all people are equipped to do the things they want. Look in the mirror and see for yourself if you are equipped with the talent, the skill, the intelligence, the beauty and the poise to be whoever you want to be...because honestly, sometimes we dont possess all of them. So, give up and start dreaming something else. Maybe you deserve more!
~ Ralph Waldo Emerson-
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People sometimes intrigue me. After inculcating some sense in their rather miserable minds I thought you got me and the point I have been reiterating for the past few years.
I've been rattling my brains why I love Sue Sylvester and then an amazing lightbulb sparked in my brain: Because she tells the truth however harsh it can be.
-
-"Not everyone could be champions. Not everyone SHOULD be champions. We need fry cooks, bus drivers." Sue Sylvester
Im just so tired telling people the truth, so I guess I have to start bullshitting them for once. Maybe they will believe me if I tell them that they are really pretty and they do not have those yellow teeth (as mine or worse!) and they have lustrous hair (not me, I have dandruff!) and they really look good if they color their hair blonde and they are really sexy (pass me the barf bag!) and they have a six pack (again, not me! I have a belt bag!) and they have a posture of a beauty queen that would put Naomi Campbell to shame!
Really! Give it up! Think of something more productive rather than weaving castles in the sky! Its just such a pain to see you waste your time and effort when you could have been something else..maybe something better. Far better than what you are dreaming of.
Let me tell you a story. I dream too. When I was a kid I dreamt of becoming a singer. But do I have the vocals to back me up? HELL NO!!! Im like a howling coyote in the middle of the night. Should I keep on dreaming? That is pathetic! Think If you are equipped! If you are not, think if you can possess it through practice and modern technology. Like if you have crooked teeth, get a friggin' brace. If the problem is not fixable for some reasons, then.....My GOD! Please give it up!
I will not advice that you kept on pursuing a bottomless crevasse of a dream. I have said this time and time again, not all people are equipped to do the things they want. Look in the mirror and see for yourself if you are equipped with the talent, the skill, the intelligence, the beauty and the poise to be whoever you want to be...because honestly, sometimes we dont possess all of them. So, give up and start dreaming something else. Maybe you deserve more!
Thursday, April 28, 2011
Boun Compleanno Maria
I met Maria September of 2007 (She can correct me if I'm wrong!) and I was not really in awe of that first meeting. Actually, most of my close friends get that attitude from me. My soul sister said that I was a complete bee-otch when she was introduced to me. So when I smiled and ignored Maria when we were introduced that was my kindest moment. Hahaha!
I'm really not good with people. When I was in High School I tend to be friendly and then I decided, why the hell should I please people who doesn't like me? But if everybody has the same point of view as mine, I might not have met my soul sister or Maria, right? That was just me!
Dear Perpie,
Time and time again, I have been vigilant of how you should live your life. People mistaken me as a bitch (and I am!) and a control freak (that too!) and a mean girl. Maybe they are right, maybe there are people who still see the good in me so they still deserve to be counted as my friends.
I am sorry if I have been a very difficult person. I am usually like that to people I love, to people I care for and to people who are so few that they deserve my time and mood swings. I am also very protective.
I am quite happy with what you have achieved right now. I know there will be a lot of sacrifices more to come and hardships that you must combat but rest assured that God is good and if you will just live this life and let go of all the bitterness that you have encountered then you will know and realize that EVERYTHING is in his hands.
Sometimes people will take advantage of your vulnerability. Most of the times you will be blinded by the flaws of men just because they are handsome. But however you attack life, whether with kindness or ignorance or wisdom, always remember that the TRUTH (however harsh it may be) will always set you free.
I'm not saying that you should be so ruthless about TRUTH, all I'm saying is: No more tricks because if it did not work before for you, it will never work now. There is no need to brag, no need to let other people know what your plans are because these insignificant people will only malign you for not conquering your dreams. There is no need to broadcast what you want in life not unless it is already in the palm of your hands. STOP! Sometimes we try to be whom we are not because we want people to know that we are somebody even if we are not. So what if you are a nobody? So what if right now you have achieved nothing? So effin what? For as long as you have your child you will never be a NOBODY. For as long as you have true friends, you achieved something. Forget about people who gives you sugar coated words because honestly, in my experience, people who try to tell you nice words and pretend to lift you up are the people who will stab you in your back.
I am happy for you. And for as long as you are on the right track you will reach your dreams. For as long as you do the right thing, you will be on the path to a peaceful life. Sometimes we dream too big, sometimes bigger than life itself. And the more we dream big and build air castles in the sky, the more we get frustrated for what we cannot achieve. Some wise men, said: Try and try until you succeed. So what if you stumble, try again. But bear in mind that you also need a reality check. Not everyone can be a movie star or an astronaut or a president, but we still can make a difference in this vast world. We still can find what we are looking for though it seems like an endless pursuit.
I am happy for you. Be good. Always. And sometimes, if you feel that you are tempted think of me nagging you. And mostly, think of yourself. Would you like to be in the same scenario that you were before? Are you willing to submit yourself to massive PAIN and depression again?
Love, like sex is overrated. It is! You tend to make a fairytale out of reality and that disappoints you. Men will always be who they are. Do not look for the outward appearance in them because that too will fade. Look for someone who will make you laugh and really really love you. Because in the end, men who loves and RESPECT you will not stray.
My wish for you is to find a man who will keep you grounded. A man who will stand by you no matter what storm passes. A man who will love your daughter as his own. A man who put you in a pedestal and support you in your endeavor. And most especially, a man who thinks of you as his DESTINY and not just his side trip.
Be happy and contented of what you have right now. If a door opens, grab it, if need be. If it closes, it doesn't necessarily mean that life stops there. There will be another door which will open, probably not what you wanted but certainly what you need.
Happy Birthday! Rest assured that the friendship and loyalty you gave me is reciprocated and I will treasure our friendship for eternity.
I love you gurlfriend! Enjoy your day!
I'm really not good with people. When I was in High School I tend to be friendly and then I decided, why the hell should I please people who doesn't like me? But if everybody has the same point of view as mine, I might not have met my soul sister or Maria, right? That was just me!
Dear Perpie,
Time and time again, I have been vigilant of how you should live your life. People mistaken me as a bitch (and I am!) and a control freak (that too!) and a mean girl. Maybe they are right, maybe there are people who still see the good in me so they still deserve to be counted as my friends.
I am sorry if I have been a very difficult person. I am usually like that to people I love, to people I care for and to people who are so few that they deserve my time and mood swings. I am also very protective.
I am quite happy with what you have achieved right now. I know there will be a lot of sacrifices more to come and hardships that you must combat but rest assured that God is good and if you will just live this life and let go of all the bitterness that you have encountered then you will know and realize that EVERYTHING is in his hands.
Sometimes people will take advantage of your vulnerability. Most of the times you will be blinded by the flaws of men just because they are handsome. But however you attack life, whether with kindness or ignorance or wisdom, always remember that the TRUTH (however harsh it may be) will always set you free.
I'm not saying that you should be so ruthless about TRUTH, all I'm saying is: No more tricks because if it did not work before for you, it will never work now. There is no need to brag, no need to let other people know what your plans are because these insignificant people will only malign you for not conquering your dreams. There is no need to broadcast what you want in life not unless it is already in the palm of your hands. STOP! Sometimes we try to be whom we are not because we want people to know that we are somebody even if we are not. So what if you are a nobody? So what if right now you have achieved nothing? So effin what? For as long as you have your child you will never be a NOBODY. For as long as you have true friends, you achieved something. Forget about people who gives you sugar coated words because honestly, in my experience, people who try to tell you nice words and pretend to lift you up are the people who will stab you in your back.
I am happy for you. And for as long as you are on the right track you will reach your dreams. For as long as you do the right thing, you will be on the path to a peaceful life. Sometimes we dream too big, sometimes bigger than life itself. And the more we dream big and build air castles in the sky, the more we get frustrated for what we cannot achieve. Some wise men, said: Try and try until you succeed. So what if you stumble, try again. But bear in mind that you also need a reality check. Not everyone can be a movie star or an astronaut or a president, but we still can make a difference in this vast world. We still can find what we are looking for though it seems like an endless pursuit.
I am happy for you. Be good. Always. And sometimes, if you feel that you are tempted think of me nagging you. And mostly, think of yourself. Would you like to be in the same scenario that you were before? Are you willing to submit yourself to massive PAIN and depression again?
Love, like sex is overrated. It is! You tend to make a fairytale out of reality and that disappoints you. Men will always be who they are. Do not look for the outward appearance in them because that too will fade. Look for someone who will make you laugh and really really love you. Because in the end, men who loves and RESPECT you will not stray.
My wish for you is to find a man who will keep you grounded. A man who will stand by you no matter what storm passes. A man who will love your daughter as his own. A man who put you in a pedestal and support you in your endeavor. And most especially, a man who thinks of you as his DESTINY and not just his side trip.
Be happy and contented of what you have right now. If a door opens, grab it, if need be. If it closes, it doesn't necessarily mean that life stops there. There will be another door which will open, probably not what you wanted but certainly what you need.
Happy Birthday! Rest assured that the friendship and loyalty you gave me is reciprocated and I will treasure our friendship for eternity.
I love you gurlfriend! Enjoy your day!
Thursday, April 21, 2011
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
The Choice Is Yours
"Of all the gazillion choices in the world you choose to take the wrong path. I'm sorry for being apathetic about your demise but as I have said: We are all the product of the choices we make."
I have stated this over and over and I am fed up. I am fed up of people not taking responsibility of their own actions. I am pro-life. I have always been. I am not an advocate of abortion though I believe that people should be given their right to choose whether they want their baby (excuse me? They are the one who will raise the baby and not you!) or not.
But forgive me if I am not sympathetic of anyone who choose a miserable life. Beggars for instance. I see a lot of beggars who are stronger than me and could easily offer to wash dishes for food than to beg for food. Who are you to oblige me to give you something that I have shed time, efforts and strength to ask for food which you could easily find yourself but refuse to do so because you are goddamn lazy?
I am appalled by the fact that people who smuggled drugs in China (and later on executed) would ask for sympathy. You have embarrassed your families and friends and your country! And you want me to sympathize? For what? That if you were not caught you will have millions and a lot of people become addicted to the drugs you have smuggled? That the drugs you smuggled could've ruined lives if not intercepted?
I am PRO-CHOICE. And if you choose the wrong path you have to take full responsibility of your action. True, Death can be harsh! But it was your choice. I believe that you were given a lecture at PDOS before leaving the Philippines that you should not let anyone pack your luggage. Therefore I do not believe you do not know whatever is inside your luggage.
My soul sister has another stand about this issue. She stated: "I think its more political. If its an American who committed that crime, do you think the punishment will be this swift? Chinese are the biggest smugglers in the world. They should kill their own people. Damn it! Political Drama to show off! A banner for communism! lol"
To which I replied with: "Its a choice. They took that choice. I don't care about politics. Do you think if they made the right choice they would arrive to this conclusion?"
I sympathize!
I sympathize to your family. I sympathize to your friends. I sympathize to our country. But never will I sympathize to your choice.
I have stated this over and over and I am fed up. I am fed up of people not taking responsibility of their own actions. I am pro-life. I have always been. I am not an advocate of abortion though I believe that people should be given their right to choose whether they want their baby (excuse me? They are the one who will raise the baby and not you!) or not.
But forgive me if I am not sympathetic of anyone who choose a miserable life. Beggars for instance. I see a lot of beggars who are stronger than me and could easily offer to wash dishes for food than to beg for food. Who are you to oblige me to give you something that I have shed time, efforts and strength to ask for food which you could easily find yourself but refuse to do so because you are goddamn lazy?
I am appalled by the fact that people who smuggled drugs in China (and later on executed) would ask for sympathy. You have embarrassed your families and friends and your country! And you want me to sympathize? For what? That if you were not caught you will have millions and a lot of people become addicted to the drugs you have smuggled? That the drugs you smuggled could've ruined lives if not intercepted?
I am PRO-CHOICE. And if you choose the wrong path you have to take full responsibility of your action. True, Death can be harsh! But it was your choice. I believe that you were given a lecture at PDOS before leaving the Philippines that you should not let anyone pack your luggage. Therefore I do not believe you do not know whatever is inside your luggage.
My soul sister has another stand about this issue. She stated: "I think its more political. If its an American who committed that crime, do you think the punishment will be this swift? Chinese are the biggest smugglers in the world. They should kill their own people. Damn it! Political Drama to show off! A banner for communism! lol"
To which I replied with: "Its a choice. They took that choice. I don't care about politics. Do you think if they made the right choice they would arrive to this conclusion?"
I sympathize!
I sympathize to your family. I sympathize to your friends. I sympathize to our country. But never will I sympathize to your choice.
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Happy St. Patrick's Day
Kathy Griffin: Life on the D-List.
You should try to watch her. She is hilarious!
On another note, I woke up to make Beamer his lunch and gave him his clothes for work and he whined that he should not wear the Old Navy Purple shirt at work because it is The St. Patrick's Day and he needed green. And WHAT? I should know that? What in the bloody hell do I know about St. Patty's? I'm not IRISH! I'm a goddamn Filipina immigrant! And WHAT? He expects me to know that after the parade last Saturday is not the be all end all? And WHAT? He needs to wear green twice???
Okay okay, so I sort of flipped out and he asked why and I said because I'm a nutjob! Well, I'm a bad person but I am not incompetent and my work as a housewife (where I'm underpaid! hehehe! Hell I'm a whiner! I'm not doing anything and I complain!) is taken seriously! Okay, I admit, not that serious but I will...eventually!
My hubster is a loving person and I am so so madly in love with him. Sometimes I just feel so lazy showing it. But deep in the recesses of my being, I know that he knows that I love him so much.
Happy St. Patrick's Day!
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May I just say that she cracks me up tremendously! The feeling is unbelievable because I love comedians and I love laughing as much as I love hating. Suffice it to say, I love feeling something out of this pea-sized heart of mine according to Sugar (Ladies & Gentlemen, my sister!) who corrected me when I stated that "Whoever knew me can vouch that beneath my bitchy exterior breathes a pure heart with a size of a marble."
You should try to watch her. She is hilarious!
On another note, I woke up to make Beamer his lunch and gave him his clothes for work and he whined that he should not wear the Old Navy Purple shirt at work because it is The St. Patrick's Day and he needed green. And WHAT? I should know that? What in the bloody hell do I know about St. Patty's? I'm not IRISH! I'm a goddamn Filipina immigrant! And WHAT? He expects me to know that after the parade last Saturday is not the be all end all? And WHAT? He needs to wear green twice???
Okay okay, so I sort of flipped out and he asked why and I said because I'm a nutjob! Well, I'm a bad person but I am not incompetent and my work as a housewife (where I'm underpaid! hehehe! Hell I'm a whiner! I'm not doing anything and I complain!) is taken seriously! Okay, I admit, not that serious but I will...eventually!
My hubster is a loving person and I am so so madly in love with him. Sometimes I just feel so lazy showing it. But deep in the recesses of my being, I know that he knows that I love him so much.
Happy St. Patrick's Day!
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