I met Maria September of 2007 (She can correct me if I'm wrong!) and I was not really in awe of that first meeting. Actually, most of my close friends get that attitude from me. My soul sister said that I was a complete bee-otch when she was introduced to me. So when I smiled and ignored Maria when we were introduced that was my kindest moment. Hahaha!
I'm really not good with people. When I was in High School I tend to be friendly and then I decided, why the hell should I please people who doesn't like me? But if everybody has the same point of view as mine, I might not have met my soul sister or Maria, right? That was just me!
Dear Perpie,
Time and time again, I have been vigilant of how you should live your life. People mistaken me as a bitch (and I am!) and a control freak (that too!) and a mean girl. Maybe they are right, maybe there are people who still see the good in me so they still deserve to be counted as my friends.
I am sorry if I have been a very difficult person. I am usually like that to people I love, to people I care for and to people who are so few that they deserve my time and mood swings. I am also very protective.
I am quite happy with what you have achieved right now. I know there will be a lot of sacrifices more to come and hardships that you must combat but rest assured that God is good and if you will just live this life and let go of all the bitterness that you have encountered then you will know and realize that EVERYTHING is in his hands.
Sometimes people will take advantage of your vulnerability. Most of the times you will be blinded by the flaws of men just because they are handsome. But however you attack life, whether with kindness or ignorance or wisdom, always remember that the TRUTH (however harsh it may be) will always set you free.
I'm not saying that you should be so ruthless about TRUTH, all I'm saying is: No more tricks because if it did not work before for you, it will never work now. There is no need to brag, no need to let other people know what your plans are because these insignificant people will only malign you for not conquering your dreams. There is no need to broadcast what you want in life not unless it is already in the palm of your hands. STOP! Sometimes we try to be whom we are not because we want people to know that we are somebody even if we are not. So what if you are a nobody? So what if right now you have achieved nothing? So effin what? For as long as you have your child you will never be a NOBODY. For as long as you have true friends, you achieved something. Forget about people who gives you sugar coated words because honestly, in my experience, people who try to tell you nice words and pretend to lift you up are the people who will stab you in your back.
I am happy for you. And for as long as you are on the right track you will reach your dreams. For as long as you do the right thing, you will be on the path to a peaceful life. Sometimes we dream too big, sometimes bigger than life itself. And the more we dream big and build air castles in the sky, the more we get frustrated for what we cannot achieve. Some wise men, said: Try and try until you succeed. So what if you stumble, try again. But bear in mind that you also need a reality check. Not everyone can be a movie star or an astronaut or a president, but we still can make a difference in this vast world. We still can find what we are looking for though it seems like an endless pursuit.
I am happy for you. Be good. Always. And sometimes, if you feel that you are tempted think of me nagging you. And mostly, think of yourself. Would you like to be in the same scenario that you were before? Are you willing to submit yourself to massive PAIN and depression again?
Love, like sex is overrated. It is! You tend to make a fairytale out of reality and that disappoints you. Men will always be who they are. Do not look for the outward appearance in them because that too will fade. Look for someone who will make you laugh and really really love you. Because in the end, men who loves and RESPECT you will not stray.
My wish for you is to find a man who will keep you grounded. A man who will stand by you no matter what storm passes. A man who will love your daughter as his own. A man who put you in a pedestal and support you in your endeavor. And most especially, a man who thinks of you as his DESTINY and not just his side trip.
Be happy and contented of what you have right now. If a door opens, grab it, if need be. If it closes, it doesn't necessarily mean that life stops there. There will be another door which will open, probably not what you wanted but certainly what you need.
Happy Birthday! Rest assured that the friendship and loyalty you gave me is reciprocated and I will treasure our friendship for eternity.
I love you gurlfriend! Enjoy your day!
